Don't get me wrong, I still have bad days....when I come across a picture on Facebook or receive a text about Keystone.....I still hurt. But I've also learned to control what hurts me. I recently took TimeHop off of my ipad because it was too much sadness, too many memories. But that's the beauty of being in control......I don't have to see the sadness. Don't go looking for the sad.
More importantly, I've learned and remind myself daily....I'm not disposable. Despite being tossed aside by friends of many, many years and an organization I adored, I am valuable.
I give a tremendous amount of gratitude to my family for reminding me of my relevance. And my good friends, many from high school and my first round of college who message me encouraging words or ask about school. And my old friends who send me cards in the mail and text me crazy nonsense when I should be reading about the suffrage movement.
So in the end, as I've lost so much.....I've gained so so much more.
